I feel the need to update this, as it's been a couple of weeks. I've tried staying raw, and since our pool is open now, I've been swimming vigorously/using resistance training/etc. on top of that. All for...0.00 lbs of weight loss.
We're talking eating around 1200 calories raw, total (roughly), and exercising/weight training at LEAST 2 hours a day...and that's not counting the amount that I sweat out during each infrared sauna session (at least 30 min to an hour). I've been doing this every day, 7 X a week, without fail.
No weight loss.
I've felt a little better, in general, because of the exercise (I love swimming and feeling the cool water around me - and it gives me a natural high to get out of the sauna and go running straight to the pool), but I'm flabbergasted at the lack of weight loss. I was so sure I had lost weight (although my clothes didn't indicate that), just from the pure scientific standpoint, and I withheld weighing myself for a while, because I wanted to see the scale reflect a significant loss (and so I'd feel good about myself). But...nope. Nada. Zilch. Nothing. In fact, I GAINED.
I really don't know what else to try, short of a water fast, which I simply don't have the time to do (chasing 2 small kids all day and working a lot when I'm not with them...not much time for that, especially since you need lots of rest for that sort of thing).
I try to eat lots of veggies, but I eat a lot of fruit, too (probably 50% fruit, and 50% veggies). It dawned on me that I must be so seriously insulin resistant that my body may be trying to convert the fruit sugars into fat (and I'm exercising like crazy, so it's not able to...so I'm just keeping status quo). Not sure about this, since I am definitely NOT a doctor, but I just don't understand it otherwise.
It turns out that overall I've gained a little since last post...so my total weight loss since starting in March is only 8 lbs. Very sickening, considering how hard I've worked to get the weight off, but it's the truth. My guess is that I may have gained 2 lbs of muscle weight or something along those lines, which is a GOOD thing...but it sure is frustrating when I don't see ANY results in my clothes or scale readings. :( Uuuugh. And in doing a lot of research on the internet, it appears I'm the ONLY person on the face of this planet who is having this hard of an issue losing weight while raw and exercising. I would do the juice fast again, but I can't afford to have some violent emotional mood swings like I was having last time. Work is getting more stressful and intense for me lately as it is, and based on my last reactions (that were TERRIBLE and rageful) to the juice fast with relatively LITTLE stress, I'm frightened to think about where that would take me at this point. :s
So...my last resort in trying raw, is that I'm going to switch to primarily eating veggies...with very little fruit. Calorie-wise, this is going to big quite a big cutback. I mean, I can only eat so much salad and celery sticks, so this is going to be rough. I am getting desperate, and even if I lost 1 lb a day, I would not meet my goal by July 14 (not even within 10 lbs), so I'm having to take that off of this site, and let it ride and see where it takes me.
I am soooooo frustrated right now. It would be one thing if I was sitting on my butt drinking margaritas and chowing down on pizza and cake...but I am trying so hard to make huge changes (and eating as healthy as possible), including exercising like a madwoman, and the results are sooooo dismal. :( I know I am pre-diabetic and insulin resistant, and in speaking with a doctor friend of mine, she suggested that I may be closer to having diabetes than the test results conclude...which would make sense as to why I cannot lose weight to save my life (literally). That really, really sucks. My body just wants to hang. on. to. every. last. ounce. of. fat.
One thing I would like to eat is berries...such as blackberries...so I might allow myself some every day. My mom has blackberry bushes on her side of the property that are bearing tons and tons of berries each day...and I found some more wild blackberry bushes growing wild on our private road...HUGE, ripe blackberries...all pesticide free...just growing in all their natural goodness. :) So...I'll probably work with a raw-vegan-vegetable-and-berry diet. Sheesh...that sounds so ridiculous that I have to do that, but it is what it is. The FATkins diet...I mean, Atkins...used to work for me a long time ago (about 10 years ago...got down to 110 lbs), but I think I screwed up my metabolism with that diet, because suddenly it didn't work anymore, and I gained weight like crazy one year (no change to my diet, and I was exercising and *thought* I was being healthy). I used to think Atkins was pretty radical back then, but THIS is even more extreme, I guess.
If a mostly raw veggie diet with 2-3 hours of intense exercise a day doesn't work, then there HAS to be something seriously wrong with me, and I don't think I have another choice but to visit the doctor. I can't live this way anymore. Something has to give SOMEwhere.
What's even more frustrating is that my husband's cousin lost 100 lbs in 100 days simply by cutting his calories and exercising. Now, I know that's an extreme and unusual deal for someone to be able to do that, but he didn't have to do anything radical. In talking to him, he honestly did NOT believe me when I told him all the stuff I was trying to do to lose weight, with little to no success. He and his wife (she lost 20 lbs in 20 days by simple exercising and cutting back on calories, too...she consumes 1500 calories a day and does 1 hour of exercise) flat out told me I must be doing something wrong or lying about it. It really pissed me off. He said, "You just need to find a way of eating and lifestyle that works for you and one that you're happy with." No shit, Sherlock. Been doing that for years, now. They think that doing an all-raw diet with no meat (they kept asking me where I got my protein...ugh, I HATE that question, because it's so STUPID - I get MORE protein that's utilized MORE efficiently through my fruits, raw nuts, and veggies than I EVER did with meat - which btw, always made me feel terrible and sick after I ate it) was totally off the charts in insanity, and then they insisted I must be keeping candy bars in my closet or something to survive. Grrrrr! :( I'm NOT!
Although I wanted to throttle them, I almost don't blame them for being skeptical. If someone else told me the same thing, I don't know if I would have believed them, either. As aforementioned, it totally defies the law of...well, whatever it's called. Physics, or chemistry, or some sort of science. If it takes cutting out or burning 3500 calories to lose a pound, I should be losing SOMETHING every week. I don't, though.
What's even weirder is that I'm drinking lots and lots of water, but I don't urinate as much as I think I should anymore. I'm wondering if some of my body mass is simple water weight that my body somehow thinks it should maintain and hold on to? Even still, I should be burning up SOMETHING. Either way, if the veggie diet doesn't work, then I need to get more tests done. I do NOT want to turn to conventional medicine, but something is really screwed up.
Anyhow, enough venting. Time to make a salad for lunch, so here we go.....
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
On and on....
I've had a few slip-ups, but we're getting back to raw. As a matter of fact, after reading Nettie's stuff on her juice fast, I'm actually inspired to try to juice fast again! Hubs and I are seriously considering it next week, provided that we start and STICK with 100% raw for this week.
My weigh-in? I lost about 1 lb. Blech...oh well, though...at least the scale is starting to move downwards again. Better than going UP, so I am feeling thankful (especially since I've been on and off again with raw).
One bad thing I did today was drinking some coffee. I don't drink caffeine lately, as a general rule, but the past couple of weeks, I've probably drank a caffeinated beverage about 1-2 times a week. Gotta stop that. I get the initial rush that I desire, but it really exhausts me afterwards (sometimes to the point of needing a nap). SO not worth it!
How on earth did I manage drinking so much caffeine every day on my old way of eating? I used to be such a Diet Coke and Diet Dr. Pepper hound...then I switched to coffee, which is a lot cheaper and you can get a lot more caffeine in one sitting...LOL. And I didn't just drink 1 a day...if we had cokes laying around the house, my husband and I would down a 12 pack within 2-3 days...and that's if we were being conservative! When we switched to coffee, we probably had a 3/4 to a pot EACH throughout the day. My poor adrenals!
Nothing much more to update, but I'm getting back into the swing of things. I have a really busy 2 weeks ahead of me, so I'm hoping that I'll be so distracted that I won't be tempted to be "bad" again. I don't know why, but it was so much easier starting on raw at the beginning...cooked foods didn't tempt me in the slightest...and then once I ate a little cooked food, I went on a weird roller coaster. Go back on raw for a few days, and then "cheat" Go back on raw, and then "cheat" again. Go back on raw...well, you get the picture. ;) I know I can do SO much better than that. My metabolism is probably so confused right now...LOL! I need to get it revving again, instead of constantly trying to get the cooked gunk out of me.
I have a little over two more months, and it's looking pretty dismal as to meeting my goals...but I'll try, anyhow. I put on a pair of pants that I didn't think I could fit into, so I've gone down a pant size, anyhow. Not HUGE progress, but progress, nonetheless. :)
Progress, not perfection. Progress, not perfection. Progress, not perfection....
SIGH!
I'm going to weigh in another few days, and there better be some more downwards stuff, scale-wise. :D I'm going to try and avoid hissy fits over it, too. :) I'm scared about going through massive emotional detox again, though. Uuuuugh.
Gotta go slurp down some juicy honeydew! Mmmm. Maybe munch on some coconut meat and have some coconut juice. (Just the plain kind - not the young thai ones.) Speaking of regular coconuts, they are super cheap at our local supermarket ($0.88 each!)...but I can't find a whole lot of info on it, raw-wise (I only read about the young ones...I doubt these are young?). They're still raw and satisfying, though...so I guess I'll keep on eating 'em unless I read otherwise that I shouldn't.
Aw, well...I'll be picking up some young thai coconuts in a couple of days, when I go in to the office. (I work from home part time, and commute a day or two a week when I can...although I wish I didn't have to work at all, I am very blessed to be able to have a job that allows this!) I joke to hubs about "...Goin' to TOWN!" (have to say that with the hickiest accent possible) when I go in to the office, because we live so faaaar out in the middle of nowhere. I'm currently commuting about 1.5 hours each way, although our office is moving a little closer to home (cutting my commute to about 45 minutes to an hour each way...WAY better) next month.
Still, you can't beat the country. I own about 4 acres myself (where my house is on), about 1/2 of it heavily wooded, and my family owns the surrounding 45 acres around it, so it's pretty secluded. My son loves being able to toss perishables to the wildlife outside, in the trees (banana peels, rinds, etc....)...and they ALWAYS magically disappear by the next day. I imagine the animals are getting all kinds of good nutrients from this stuff, too! :D We have raccoons, possums, wild turkeys, road runners, deer, wild pigs, foxes, small bobcat-like cats (seen them from a distance at twilight...kinda scary), tons of wild kitty cats, wild dogs, and all kinds of little critters (squirrels, etc.) that run amok the property, so there's no telling what gets eaten by whom (and who eats who...LOL!) at night.
That being said, I don't have an excuse as to why I am not growing my own garden, composting, etc. except sheer laziness. I really need to start, though - it'll be the healthiest way to stay raw, and it will probably (in the long run) cut quite a bit of grocery cost down for us! My parents and sister already started getting a head start on theirs...I need to catch up. LOL! Plus, I imagine it would help me stay motivated...not to mention the sheer satisfaction of growing some of my own food (and knowing exactly where it comes from).
OK, I'm rambling, so it's time to close for today before everyone starts complaining of keyboard imprints on their foreheads (from falling asleep of boredom in reading these entries). :D
My weigh-in? I lost about 1 lb. Blech...oh well, though...at least the scale is starting to move downwards again. Better than going UP, so I am feeling thankful (especially since I've been on and off again with raw).
One bad thing I did today was drinking some coffee. I don't drink caffeine lately, as a general rule, but the past couple of weeks, I've probably drank a caffeinated beverage about 1-2 times a week. Gotta stop that. I get the initial rush that I desire, but it really exhausts me afterwards (sometimes to the point of needing a nap). SO not worth it!
How on earth did I manage drinking so much caffeine every day on my old way of eating? I used to be such a Diet Coke and Diet Dr. Pepper hound...then I switched to coffee, which is a lot cheaper and you can get a lot more caffeine in one sitting...LOL. And I didn't just drink 1 a day...if we had cokes laying around the house, my husband and I would down a 12 pack within 2-3 days...and that's if we were being conservative! When we switched to coffee, we probably had a 3/4 to a pot EACH throughout the day. My poor adrenals!
Nothing much more to update, but I'm getting back into the swing of things. I have a really busy 2 weeks ahead of me, so I'm hoping that I'll be so distracted that I won't be tempted to be "bad" again. I don't know why, but it was so much easier starting on raw at the beginning...cooked foods didn't tempt me in the slightest...and then once I ate a little cooked food, I went on a weird roller coaster. Go back on raw for a few days, and then "cheat" Go back on raw, and then "cheat" again. Go back on raw...well, you get the picture. ;) I know I can do SO much better than that. My metabolism is probably so confused right now...LOL! I need to get it revving again, instead of constantly trying to get the cooked gunk out of me.
I have a little over two more months, and it's looking pretty dismal as to meeting my goals...but I'll try, anyhow. I put on a pair of pants that I didn't think I could fit into, so I've gone down a pant size, anyhow. Not HUGE progress, but progress, nonetheless. :)
Progress, not perfection. Progress, not perfection. Progress, not perfection....
SIGH!
I'm going to weigh in another few days, and there better be some more downwards stuff, scale-wise. :D I'm going to try and avoid hissy fits over it, too. :) I'm scared about going through massive emotional detox again, though. Uuuuugh.
Gotta go slurp down some juicy honeydew! Mmmm. Maybe munch on some coconut meat and have some coconut juice. (Just the plain kind - not the young thai ones.) Speaking of regular coconuts, they are super cheap at our local supermarket ($0.88 each!)...but I can't find a whole lot of info on it, raw-wise (I only read about the young ones...I doubt these are young?). They're still raw and satisfying, though...so I guess I'll keep on eating 'em unless I read otherwise that I shouldn't.
Aw, well...I'll be picking up some young thai coconuts in a couple of days, when I go in to the office. (I work from home part time, and commute a day or two a week when I can...although I wish I didn't have to work at all, I am very blessed to be able to have a job that allows this!) I joke to hubs about "...Goin' to TOWN!" (have to say that with the hickiest accent possible) when I go in to the office, because we live so faaaar out in the middle of nowhere. I'm currently commuting about 1.5 hours each way, although our office is moving a little closer to home (cutting my commute to about 45 minutes to an hour each way...WAY better) next month.
Still, you can't beat the country. I own about 4 acres myself (where my house is on), about 1/2 of it heavily wooded, and my family owns the surrounding 45 acres around it, so it's pretty secluded. My son loves being able to toss perishables to the wildlife outside, in the trees (banana peels, rinds, etc....)...and they ALWAYS magically disappear by the next day. I imagine the animals are getting all kinds of good nutrients from this stuff, too! :D We have raccoons, possums, wild turkeys, road runners, deer, wild pigs, foxes, small bobcat-like cats (seen them from a distance at twilight...kinda scary), tons of wild kitty cats, wild dogs, and all kinds of little critters (squirrels, etc.) that run amok the property, so there's no telling what gets eaten by whom (and who eats who...LOL!) at night.
That being said, I don't have an excuse as to why I am not growing my own garden, composting, etc. except sheer laziness. I really need to start, though - it'll be the healthiest way to stay raw, and it will probably (in the long run) cut quite a bit of grocery cost down for us! My parents and sister already started getting a head start on theirs...I need to catch up. LOL! Plus, I imagine it would help me stay motivated...not to mention the sheer satisfaction of growing some of my own food (and knowing exactly where it comes from).
OK, I'm rambling, so it's time to close for today before everyone starts complaining of keyboard imprints on their foreheads (from falling asleep of boredom in reading these entries). :D
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Okay...Kinda Going Back to Raw....
Well...so much for the juicing part. LOL! Anyone reading this must think I'm insane. I'm doing good just sticking with raw, so maybe I'll just do that for a while again, and quit being so hard on myself. I can't believe what a hypocrite I "yam"! :p I'm usually not so wishy-washy, but these are weird circumstances for me, so...there ya have it. If you don't like it, don't read it. :D Hee hee.
I was doing really well with exercising, and now I'm finding myself slacking off again - ugh! So...back to the ol' treadmill and eliptical runner for me again. I guess I need to stick with what works, and quit trying to reinvent the wheel until I'm on a steady, even keel. Whee! I will say, I love the infrared sauna, so I'm probably going to enjoy sticking with that, too.
I have to say, no more fist-banging episodes for me as of yet (uuuugh, how horrible is that?!), despite my dietary ups and downs. This was another reason why I decided to not do the juice fast again...yet. It makes me "a-feared" of myself. No telling what kind of road rage I might develop, too - eek! :D
Nothing much to update, except that I am TOTALLY recommiting myself to raw again, no exceptions! (Let's see how much of a fool I make of myself from here on out - tee hee.)
Here's to being skinny once again! (Ting!)
I was doing really well with exercising, and now I'm finding myself slacking off again - ugh! So...back to the ol' treadmill and eliptical runner for me again. I guess I need to stick with what works, and quit trying to reinvent the wheel until I'm on a steady, even keel. Whee! I will say, I love the infrared sauna, so I'm probably going to enjoy sticking with that, too.
I have to say, no more fist-banging episodes for me as of yet (uuuugh, how horrible is that?!), despite my dietary ups and downs. This was another reason why I decided to not do the juice fast again...yet. It makes me "a-feared" of myself. No telling what kind of road rage I might develop, too - eek! :D
Nothing much to update, except that I am TOTALLY recommiting myself to raw again, no exceptions! (Let's see how much of a fool I make of myself from here on out - tee hee.)
Here's to being skinny once again! (Ting!)
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Being Bad
I've been on and off "bad" the past couple of weeks...sometimes being good and sticking to raw 100%, and then sometimes flying off of it. I think once I started eating cooked foods, it started to really mess with me.
I weighed myself today, and I'm still down 11 lbs total, which is shocking, since I thought I would have gained more than I did.
Hubs and I both have been "bad" (even indulging in cocktails/wine here and there...we had pizze one night, and Mexican food again on another...ooooh, naughty), but we're trying to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and start anew. I think we both got "bored" with raw food or something...and once we cheated on the diet here and there, it quickly started to escalate into more and more cheats. I guess the rule of thumb for us for now is...NO CHEATING on this diet for now.
I almost thought I could add a little cooked food with our raw regime, but that seems to trigger me into eating/craving MORE cooked food. Wish this was easier, but...well, it's not. LOL!
I am disappointed in a lot of things...including myself...since I figured by this point, I'd be down a LOT more weight than I am. STILL...all is not lost, and 11 lbs of weight loss is still significant. I just need to lose more. A LOT more. I have to get back to it.
I was doing good earlier last week in exercising...so I definitely need to pick that back up (this may be why I didn't really gain much). My mom has an in-ground pool that will be opened up again (they have a custom cover for it for fall/winter), and I will be hopefully swimming in it every day that I can, which should help immensely on the exercising front. I'm currently using the treadmill, but it's simply not that enjoyable...I LOVE swimming and exercising in the pool (we have weight-like things and stuff to "run" in the water, etc...gives a really great workout, and I looooove every minute of it).
I'm thinking about revamping my whole weight loss goals, since I only have 72 more days or something like that. Even if I lose an aggressive .5 lbs a day, that's 36 lbs. I need to lose more than that to hit 120 lbs...aaaaargh. I don't need to lose 1 lb a day or anything like that, but still...I guess if I am within 10 lbs of 120, then I should be happy.
Then maybe I could hit my goal weight by end of summer. That's still not unreasonable, but I still have a lot of work to do to get there. :) Oh well...have to stay positive, and focus on being HEALTHY (especially after these cooked binges).
Hubs and I started a juice fast today, but I think I may modify it to juicing 2 out of 3 meals each day. (Or, basically, having 1 meal raw and drinking raw juice the remainder of the time.) I think this would be more doable for me...I'd probably lose weight faster than being regular raw, but my detox symptoms won't be as severe as it was last time. (Don't think I can handle that again...not now, anyhow.) I also think I could stay on this regime indefinitely, be able to work out, feel better, etc. There may be days where I'm busy, and I just do the juice only...we'll just see.
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Ahhh...I just finished an avocado salad...we drank only juice (honeydew...omg, fantastic) early today. I think I can do this regime much easier than a flat-out juice fast.
Till next time! I'll try to update with a weigh-in every couple of days, just to see what kind of progress I'm having.
I weighed myself today, and I'm still down 11 lbs total, which is shocking, since I thought I would have gained more than I did.
Hubs and I both have been "bad" (even indulging in cocktails/wine here and there...we had pizze one night, and Mexican food again on another...ooooh, naughty), but we're trying to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and start anew. I think we both got "bored" with raw food or something...and once we cheated on the diet here and there, it quickly started to escalate into more and more cheats. I guess the rule of thumb for us for now is...NO CHEATING on this diet for now.
I almost thought I could add a little cooked food with our raw regime, but that seems to trigger me into eating/craving MORE cooked food. Wish this was easier, but...well, it's not. LOL!
I am disappointed in a lot of things...including myself...since I figured by this point, I'd be down a LOT more weight than I am. STILL...all is not lost, and 11 lbs of weight loss is still significant. I just need to lose more. A LOT more. I have to get back to it.
I was doing good earlier last week in exercising...so I definitely need to pick that back up (this may be why I didn't really gain much). My mom has an in-ground pool that will be opened up again (they have a custom cover for it for fall/winter), and I will be hopefully swimming in it every day that I can, which should help immensely on the exercising front. I'm currently using the treadmill, but it's simply not that enjoyable...I LOVE swimming and exercising in the pool (we have weight-like things and stuff to "run" in the water, etc...gives a really great workout, and I looooove every minute of it).
I'm thinking about revamping my whole weight loss goals, since I only have 72 more days or something like that. Even if I lose an aggressive .5 lbs a day, that's 36 lbs. I need to lose more than that to hit 120 lbs...aaaaargh. I don't need to lose 1 lb a day or anything like that, but still...I guess if I am within 10 lbs of 120, then I should be happy.
Then maybe I could hit my goal weight by end of summer. That's still not unreasonable, but I still have a lot of work to do to get there. :) Oh well...have to stay positive, and focus on being HEALTHY (especially after these cooked binges).
Hubs and I started a juice fast today, but I think I may modify it to juicing 2 out of 3 meals each day. (Or, basically, having 1 meal raw and drinking raw juice the remainder of the time.) I think this would be more doable for me...I'd probably lose weight faster than being regular raw, but my detox symptoms won't be as severe as it was last time. (Don't think I can handle that again...not now, anyhow.) I also think I could stay on this regime indefinitely, be able to work out, feel better, etc. There may be days where I'm busy, and I just do the juice only...we'll just see.
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Ahhh...I just finished an avocado salad...we drank only juice (honeydew...omg, fantastic) early today. I think I can do this regime much easier than a flat-out juice fast.
Till next time! I'll try to update with a weigh-in every couple of days, just to see what kind of progress I'm having.
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